The Thorn Birds~

I just finished reading 'The Thorn birds'. It was beautiful.
Something that stayed with me....

"The bird with the thorn in its breast, it follows an immutable law; it is driven by it knows not what to impale itself, and die singing. At the very instant the thorn enters there is no awareness in it of the dying to come; it simply sings and sings until there is not the life left to utter another note. But we, when we put the thorns in our breasts, we know. We understand. And still we do it. Still we do it."

We do, don't we??

just some crap~

For some time now... I haven't been able to write at all!
Its almost as if its gone now! But that is something I don't want to give up on as easily as I have given up on a few things before. Is it lack of willpower, determination, low self confidence I can't really say. But it is something I am working on.
I lost my journal a few months back! After that I just haven't written at all. It used to be just something that made me happy. A release of sorts.Then i stopped. And now, for the past month or so, I feel the need to write. But whenever I try, I can't come up with anything. I can't think. I go blank.
Someone told me when faced with the likes of the "Writers Block Syndrome" when you cant think of what you want to write, just start writing the first thing that comes into your head. It may be crap, it may not make sense. Just write, and that in itself will make a difference.
So I figured, even if I am writing 'crap', it is better than not writing at all! It won't hurt me or anyone else for that matter! aye??
So here I am.. at 3am in the morning.. writing some crap n feeling a lot better by now! :)
Maybe there will be something better next time! n if there aint.. who cares haha